Today was one of those days.
No, I don't mean those days. Today was one of those rare, amazing, I love my job days.
It wasn't that anything different happened than on any other day, or particularly any other Thursday. It was just that it was a day when I was reminded just how special my "ordinary" days are. How priveledged I am to do what I do.
In Bible study we looked at the women who poured perfume on Jesus. We talked about how special Jesus was. We looked at the Lord Supper and realised why Jesus was so special. And then we prayed for each other other and talked and laughed and ate. 'This is so important' said one lady, patting her hand on her Bible, 'I learn so much more when I learn with other people'.
I caught up with my friend who is so interested in learning about Jesus. We sat in a cafe, in plain sight of the world, with the Bible open, talking about the world and Jesus, and how special forgiveness is. We read about how no matter your background, gender, or social standing, if you trust in Jesus, you are equal and part of God's family.
I've just confirmed that I am running an event for women at church, to training them in talking about Jesus with friends. I was just going to do it with my young women's Bible study, but they insisted we make it wider because "Everyone needs to learn this".
And now I am getting ready for another Sunday of teaching.
I love those days.
B
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Symbolic act
Today, I plan to put on my contact lenses. I haven't warn them since my brother-in-laws wedding in January.
It might seem like a simple thing. I have put contact lenses in many times. It is nothing exciting or special in and of itself.
But it is a big step for me.
You see, when I cry I have to take them out. Not just normal crying- I do that everyday, sometimes sad, often happy. Tears are just part of the hyper-emotional person I am! But when I cry and I cry I can't stop, and my nose runs and my eyes go red, my eye-lids can get infected if I keep the contacts in too long. For too many days of that kind of crying.
Over the summer I couldn't wear my contacts (except for the wedding) because I was crying too much. I was just so sad.
It's not that I'm still not sad about our little baby. I am. I can't stop thinking about him. But I'm no longer falling apart all the time. I'm even sometimes a little bit happy when I think about him and our short time together.
It seems like a big step to put them in. To make a conscious decision to pull myself together.
But I think I'm ready.
love B
It might seem like a simple thing. I have put contact lenses in many times. It is nothing exciting or special in and of itself.
But it is a big step for me.
You see, when I cry I have to take them out. Not just normal crying- I do that everyday, sometimes sad, often happy. Tears are just part of the hyper-emotional person I am! But when I cry and I cry I can't stop, and my nose runs and my eyes go red, my eye-lids can get infected if I keep the contacts in too long. For too many days of that kind of crying.
Over the summer I couldn't wear my contacts (except for the wedding) because I was crying too much. I was just so sad.
It's not that I'm still not sad about our little baby. I am. I can't stop thinking about him. But I'm no longer falling apart all the time. I'm even sometimes a little bit happy when I think about him and our short time together.
It seems like a big step to put them in. To make a conscious decision to pull myself together.
But I think I'm ready.
love B
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Answered Prayers
Sometimes I forget that my God answers prayers.
Sometimes I'm so ready to explain to people that he "sometimes says no or not yet" that I forget to emphasis that he says yes too.
My Bible study has been a great reminder of God's ability to answer prayers.
Last year, we had a Mum in the group who wasn't a Christian. She was having real problems with her kids. We prayed about it and their behavior improved. Our Bible study actually has the kids in the same room as the adults and so often it's a little distracting. One week see said to me in exasperation: "There is no point in coming if the kids are ratty". I asked her to please keep coming and she said she would only come on mornings when the kids were well behaved. I said "Okay, I'll pray for them". This was in May last year, and she didn't miss a study for the rest of the year, because the kids behaved so well. And Praise God, she became a Christian at the end of the year.
This year we got a new Non-Christian Mum in the group. Her prayer point on the first day was for her son. He cried almost every day when she left him at Pre-school. She wanted us to pray that he would stop crying. When I saw her at Playgroup then next week she said he hadn't cry since we prayed but that "It wasn't God, it was a coincidence". Two and a half months in, he hasn't cried once. She said a few weeks ago "I thank God and I thank you for praying. I know that it's God who helped him not to cry".
They might seem like small things in this horrible time of earthquakes and impending Nuclear situations. But for these two Mums, it was serious struggles that God had helped them with.
And for me it was a reminder that God can and does answer prayers with yes. And I am reminded to keep praying.
love B
Sometimes I'm so ready to explain to people that he "sometimes says no or not yet" that I forget to emphasis that he says yes too.
My Bible study has been a great reminder of God's ability to answer prayers.
Last year, we had a Mum in the group who wasn't a Christian. She was having real problems with her kids. We prayed about it and their behavior improved. Our Bible study actually has the kids in the same room as the adults and so often it's a little distracting. One week see said to me in exasperation: "There is no point in coming if the kids are ratty". I asked her to please keep coming and she said she would only come on mornings when the kids were well behaved. I said "Okay, I'll pray for them". This was in May last year, and she didn't miss a study for the rest of the year, because the kids behaved so well. And Praise God, she became a Christian at the end of the year.
This year we got a new Non-Christian Mum in the group. Her prayer point on the first day was for her son. He cried almost every day when she left him at Pre-school. She wanted us to pray that he would stop crying. When I saw her at Playgroup then next week she said he hadn't cry since we prayed but that "It wasn't God, it was a coincidence". Two and a half months in, he hasn't cried once. She said a few weeks ago "I thank God and I thank you for praying. I know that it's God who helped him not to cry".
They might seem like small things in this horrible time of earthquakes and impending Nuclear situations. But for these two Mums, it was serious struggles that God had helped them with.
And for me it was a reminder that God can and does answer prayers with yes. And I am reminded to keep praying.
love B
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